I just can't do anything right.

I was told off today that I am egoistical when wanting to be happy.
It seems no matter what I will remain miserable.
I don't know anymore.

I just doesnt want to feel this or anything anymore.

Valentines day.

14/2 or Valentines day.

There is not day I feel more alone.

There is no day I am more reminded about how happy everyone else is.

There is no day I cry more.


Hope you like the chocklat and candy hearts all the rest of you who actually got someone who cares about you.

So lost.

Well for you who follows Wildefires Blog I guess you're all aware of Wilde quitting dominating.
Well I wish I could say it came as a surprise but unfortunately it didn't.
Still where does it leaves me?
Well I still consider myself Wildes and that will never change.
If she has no interest in Domming well then there is really no reason for me to exist.

No I wonät kill myself. I'm too much of a coward to ever do that.
I guess I'll com by SL now and then.
Maybe say hi or so before logging off.

Anyway I wanna put up two pictures thats from one of my happiest time in SecondLife.
Mistress was rebuilding the welcome place to Desperation Isle and moving it into the castle.
So everything that was done was building but I had my mistress close and even to myself.
And that was everythign I ever wanted then.

This first picture is of mistress plannign and building and such me simply sitting lose by wathing her.


This second picture is of me growing a bit impatient and trying to distract mistress a bit. ;P


Well thats a small memento of back when I was still happy.

Take care all.
Catch you on the flipside.