How does one react to the apparant dislike of someone else that is close to someone you like.
You cannot escape from it because the one disliking you not being there would make the person important you sad.
In other words you need the person there since otherwise the important person to you will be sad and naturally you want her happy but still you keep getting this nagging feeling of being unwanted.
This causes a conflicting feeling of wanting to be near one person, while constantly feeling that you're not welcome by another one.
And all of this is unspoken.
It's just the attitude.
The treatment that you means nothing at all.
This silent thing that makes you constantly sad and feeling meaningless.
And still one stands it, since it's the only way to be close to the one bringing you joy.
Suffer in silence? Or give up and move on?
What would you do?
Saturday, March 17, 2007
Friday, March 16, 2007
Blog, Gor, SlaveVsDominantOpinions
Well first of all a small explanation of this blog.
My other blog is more or less a wardrobe of my SL characters outfits and also of any major changer to her outward appearance.
This blog however will be more or less my tought of master slave relationships as well as reflections of Second Life.
Some things you read here you might take offence to and get mad.If you do I do not mind an IM asking for a discussion about the subject.
Senseless flaming however I will simply ignore as well as putting the offending party on the banlist and in the case of threats and outright griefing against me also file an abuse report.
First out my toughts of Goreans and Gor in Second Life.
In my not so humble opinion Gor is basically a very overrated Novelseries that isw poorly written by a hack wishing his own opinion of women would be applied on a whole planet.
The second Life phenomenon however is unfortunately even worse than the books.
This is mostly due to a large number of people not actually caring anything about Gor but simply using it to treat women like whores.
Most of these are people who are obvious juvenile little boys that has infested SecondLife even more since the age verification by Creditcard disappeared.
(I wish they took it back and that prepaid cards was no longer valid for it)
The normal approach these "role players" (yes " since they deserve not to be called that) have to females ,both in Gor and other places, "Bow down to me since you're just a lowly female and I am a superior MAN!"
Now I would preffer to show the little boy what I think of his manliness with a pair of gardenclippers however this is SecondLife so unfortunately me doing horrible things to his anatomy is not possible.
I simply have to settle for a very demeaning reply, my favourite still being, "I am sorry but unlike you I count boys like men first AFTER they've passed puberty."
Anyway the reson I stay clear of Gor is because about 95% of them is horrible roleplayers with a good taste for mediaval looking bdsm gear, but otherwise Roleplay that is so bad that the best likeness would be to have The Artist formerly knows as Prince try to growl like a death metal rocker.
To the remaining 5% of Gor Players that is actually good Roleplayers, I feel for you. If everyone in Gor was like you it would be an interesting phenomenon and I truly hope you can stand seeing your world being torn apart by the 95% of idiots that exist on SLs Gor Roleplays.
Gor did have potential but unfortunately I think it failed.
Second this time.Master and slave relationships and one of the hard parts of it...
How do you as slave in saecond life control what you want to be?
This might be a strange sentance but it bottoms in IRL BDSM.
IRL the slave is in control of the scene.
It is agreed beforehand what will happen as well as safewords to signal to the dom if something needs to change.
Secondlife is often a lot more different tho.
First of all many submissives like to have a limitless complete obediance to the dominant.
Limitless often stops being limitless when a limit is reached tho.
But otherwise it is troublesome.
How do you tell your dominant what you wish with your character without hampering the dominant?
The play in SecondLife is in some cases quite intense.
I know I would cry IRL should I lose my Mistress.
So how would I dare tell her what I want to happen to my character if It would risk clashing with what my Mistress wish?
My own will is second to my Mistress is it not?
But that will also risk that in the end I will be tied down in a Roleplay I loathe since my character has turned into a loatheseome thing I does not want to be responsible for.
So the question remain.
How does one make ones dominant understand what one want without controlling ones dom?
Does one risk abandonement due to different views of what the slave should become?
And how far does love for ones dom go, is the love enough to give up all ideas of your own that you want your character to become?
This might not have made any sense at all since it was written during a 7 hour and 35 minute long buss ride (thankyou whomever created laptops)
My other blog is more or less a wardrobe of my SL characters outfits and also of any major changer to her outward appearance.
This blog however will be more or less my tought of master slave relationships as well as reflections of Second Life.
Some things you read here you might take offence to and get mad.If you do I do not mind an IM asking for a discussion about the subject.
Senseless flaming however I will simply ignore as well as putting the offending party on the banlist and in the case of threats and outright griefing against me also file an abuse report.
First out my toughts of Goreans and Gor in Second Life.
In my not so humble opinion Gor is basically a very overrated Novelseries that isw poorly written by a hack wishing his own opinion of women would be applied on a whole planet.
The second Life phenomenon however is unfortunately even worse than the books.
This is mostly due to a large number of people not actually caring anything about Gor but simply using it to treat women like whores.
Most of these are people who are obvious juvenile little boys that has infested SecondLife even more since the age verification by Creditcard disappeared.
(I wish they took it back and that prepaid cards was no longer valid for it)
The normal approach these "role players" (yes " since they deserve not to be called that) have to females ,both in Gor and other places, "Bow down to me since you're just a lowly female and I am a superior MAN!"
Now I would preffer to show the little boy what I think of his manliness with a pair of gardenclippers however this is SecondLife so unfortunately me doing horrible things to his anatomy is not possible.
I simply have to settle for a very demeaning reply, my favourite still being, "I am sorry but unlike you I count boys like men first AFTER they've passed puberty."
Anyway the reson I stay clear of Gor is because about 95% of them is horrible roleplayers with a good taste for mediaval looking bdsm gear, but otherwise Roleplay that is so bad that the best likeness would be to have The Artist formerly knows as Prince try to growl like a death metal rocker.
To the remaining 5% of Gor Players that is actually good Roleplayers, I feel for you. If everyone in Gor was like you it would be an interesting phenomenon and I truly hope you can stand seeing your world being torn apart by the 95% of idiots that exist on SLs Gor Roleplays.
Gor did have potential but unfortunately I think it failed.
Second this time.Master and slave relationships and one of the hard parts of it...
How do you as slave in saecond life control what you want to be?
This might be a strange sentance but it bottoms in IRL BDSM.
IRL the slave is in control of the scene.
It is agreed beforehand what will happen as well as safewords to signal to the dom if something needs to change.
Secondlife is often a lot more different tho.
First of all many submissives like to have a limitless complete obediance to the dominant.
Limitless often stops being limitless when a limit is reached tho.
But otherwise it is troublesome.
How do you tell your dominant what you wish with your character without hampering the dominant?
The play in SecondLife is in some cases quite intense.
I know I would cry IRL should I lose my Mistress.
So how would I dare tell her what I want to happen to my character if It would risk clashing with what my Mistress wish?
My own will is second to my Mistress is it not?
But that will also risk that in the end I will be tied down in a Roleplay I loathe since my character has turned into a loatheseome thing I does not want to be responsible for.
So the question remain.
How does one make ones dominant understand what one want without controlling ones dom?
Does one risk abandonement due to different views of what the slave should become?
And how far does love for ones dom go, is the love enough to give up all ideas of your own that you want your character to become?
This might not have made any sense at all since it was written during a 7 hour and 35 minute long buss ride (thankyou whomever created laptops)
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